the booty is getting bodacious
don’t fret it the scale number rises, that doesn’t mean you gained fat
I seriously LOVE THIS!
okay, I usually don’t post bodies on my blog, but I think this is important
the girl on the photo is me. my ex-boyfriend took this pic last summer (2013) when we were on our way to a party. since it was a motto party I decided to put on that dress (I don’t usually wear dresses) and I remember it being a bit loose around my waist.
approx. 1 month before this picture was taken, my (then) boyfriend asked me to lose weight because he liked me better when I was thinner.
I was already struggling with my eating since I met him, I was binging regularly because of the emotional stress that came with being his girlfriend. eating was the only thing that made me happy when I was around him. but I never gave my body size too much thought, I was okay with it.
after he told me to lose weight, I stopped binging and started restricting. I started hating my body. I sometimes started to cry when I ate. I joined tumblr and became a fitblr. I started counting calories and ran everyday, sometimes twice. my self esteem sank even lower than I could have imagined.
after ditching him in october I am still struggling with my eating and my body image. when people ask me why I started my weight loss, I always say “primarily it was because of my boyfriend, but I was really a bit chubby back then”. because back then I thought I was fat. he told me I weighed too much and I believed him. yesterday, my ex sent me this picture. it was an eye-opener to say the least. he obviously managed to totally distort my body image.
I don’t want to make this all about myself. I am currently on my way to recovery, but others are still suffering. and that’s why I want to say: it doesn’t matter how fat (you think) you are, if the reason you want to lose weight is to gain the approval/respect/affection of others, if you think you are more worthy if you are slimmer, if you think your body (and therefore you) is simply not good enough because it is “too big” then STOP. IMMEDIATELY. STOP IT. RIGHT NOW.
your body is not the problem. your body is not the problem. your body is not the problem.
your mind is the problem. other people are the problem. circumstances are the problem. your body is never the problem. cut hurtful people out of your life. you are not dependent on them. you are better off without them. leave toxic environments. look for new people who celebrate you the way you are. you are worthy of love. never ever let anyone fool you into thinking otherwise.
I am single now but I am finally independent and without worry. I found new, loving, uplifting people. I have more (and more fulfilling) sex now than when I was still in the relationship (lol). I’m still on the road to recovery but I am not counting calories anymore, I eat without starting to cry. I don’t have to be around my asshole ex anymore. I am stronger. I am okay with weighing more now than I did back then. I am more confident and I don’t let anyone disrespect me anymore. I am still a fitblr, but am not running to lose weight but to build stamina for an upcoming half marathon.
you are not your body. your weight or size cannot define your worth. your body is not who you are. having a different body does not make you better or worse of a human being. what makes you you is something completely different, something that comes from within. and you are worthy. you are interesting. you are lovable. you are amazing.
recovery is possible. and your body has never been the problem.
So wahr und so gut geschrieben! Du siehst auf dem Foto super aus und jetzt sowieso. :b
2013 is the first year since 1987 to have different numbers
what about 1982
Hey guys! This is what I usually buy when I go to the grocery store. Print this out and bring it with you if you ever are in a rut with how to keep your fridge and pantry CLEAN!
Eat clean and TRAIN MEAN!!!