I’m not proud of this…
But I feel like I would be lying to you all.
I believe I was having an anxiety attack last night. I could feel my heart racing, I felt like I couldn’t breathe, I had no energy, I felt like collapsing.
My Dad was home, and he says that it’s probably just stress and that I don’t get enough sleep. When in actual fact, I do get enough sleep.
But here’s come the painful truth..
I just don’t eat anymore.
I have taken up smoking, but as a social thing, and occassionally when I get too stressed out, it helps me calm, and take my mind off things.
But as a side effect, one which I ashamedly proud of, it has quite significantly decreased my hunger cravings. I used to be hungry all the time. Now I eat when I’m really beyond the point of hungry, which isn’t often.
Anyway, yesterday, all I had eaten was an apple. And then when I got home, I was rather quite hungry, so I had dip and crackers, some nutella, and lollies.
I basically just signed my own death sentence..
I will be more careful from now on.
I know they say that diet and exercise is the best combination for weight loss. But I have dropped around 4kgs (8-9lbs) in the past two weeks.
I’m proud of my achievements, but not of the way I got there. I can’t stop.
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I’mma be MIA for a few days
Cause… It’s my birthday on the 17th!!! And I’m having a parttttyyyy!!! :D My last teenage hours I shall be reckless young, wild and free!
WTF!
Okay, so after my gym session this morning (7:30AM!! That’s early for me ok)
I took my measurements and the results are in:
Before
Bust: Unknown
Waist: 76cm (29.9in)
Hips: 94cm (37in)
NOW:
Bust: 96.5cm (38in)
Waist: 71.1cm (28in)
Hips: 91.4cm (36in)
I am so happy!!!
Just 10 more cms (4 inches) of my bust and waist, and 5 more cms (2 inches) of my hips and I have my ultimate goal measurements!!!!!!!!!!!!
MIRANDA KERR FTW!!!!
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Well I shall be set for the next few months, in front of the telly.
I don’t watch much actual TV any more. I find it so boring.
On top of these DVDs above, I have yet to be watched:
- Mad Men Season 1-4
- Downton Abbey Season 1
- Castle Season 1
- And when it comes out True Blood Season 4, with le boyf.
- And then Castle Season 2 and continue…
It’s going to be mad TV time, whenever I can.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
OH MY FUCKING GOD!
I have never ever in my entire life felt like I was going to throw up because of exercise.
But, fuck me, I was pushed so hard today. I felt so faint everything was going white and my legs felt like jelly, that hadn’t set properly.
I feel better now. The worst part is over.
Wait, did I actually agree to go back at 8:15am on Wednesday morning?? Oh fuck, wanker, shitting ass head and hole!!!!!!!!
PT today!
So today I have my first training session with a new trainer.
I’m super excited!
I’ve been following his nutritional plan, I have to admit, I actually have found it difficult eating as much as he said is required :|
But I can’t wait to be lifting and running again.
Can’t wait to get in shape! Wish me luck!
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FUCKED UP!
So basically I fucked up!
I know exactly why I was so exhausted yesterday. And I gave in to desperation. I needed sleep, bread and yoghurt. It was healthy though.
I’m currently munching on breakfast, which consists of scrambled eggs with no milk, half a stir fried tomato, and 3 three stir fried mushrooms. Yummy!
I’m hopefully going to the doctors today to ask a few things about my new lifestyle. Diet-wise. And also about breast reduction… hopefully. I would lose so much fat and weight if I didn’t have these huge saggy watermelons in the way.
There will be a bit of boob-spiration coming along.
Xxx Any thoughts?
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Thanks. I think I will. Only thing is, I’m at work. It’s a little hard to have a snooze.
But Dad suggested, having lunch outside and then seeing how I feel. If I still feel ill, I’m going home! Fml.
Any ideas?? Anyone?
I feel like I’m on auto pilot. I feel so weak, and tired and like I’m about to pass out. I don’t know what’s going on! What could be wrong?
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